Monday, October 31, 2011

Jesus

There is nothing quite like the presence of the Lord. There is nothing quite like His presence to turn our affections where they should be - on Him. As we offer worship to our King, we in turn are filled to overflowing. One song this morning caused me to just stop and fix my attention on Him. When you make a few moments to get alone with Him, close your eyes as you listen to this song, and allow your heart to be filled with words of worship to the King.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

His Voice

So thankful to receive wisdom and insight from the Lord today.

Anytime the Lord speaks, I am uplifted and encouraged. The Lord spoke to me through my good friend Tom Zurowski, the pastor at the church I gather with, The Chapel. Tom preached this week on finding the Lord's will for your life. As Tom says, most people play the "Don't ask, don't tell" game with God. They think that if they don't ask Him what His will is for their life, then maybe He wont tell them. Anyone who is playing that game with God of course has it all wrong and backwards, as finding out what He says for our life is what the Christian walk is all about.

I have had something in my heart for some time regarding the Lord's will for my and my family's life. However, I have had a seeming lack of direction regarding what to do next. I am going about my everyday life, carrying this vision in my heart. Sometimes I think about it, other times I am giving it little to no attention.

Tom's word this morning that spoke to me was, "Step toward it," and, "Lean into it."

That's what I needed to hear today. Simple, maybe, yet powerful enough to move a person toward their destiny, and it's what I needed to hear today.

He talked briefly to those who felt like God had given them a vision or calling or dream, but weren't sure what to do next. You've prayed, you desire His leading, yet you are unsure of what to do next. His advice? Step toward it. Don't wait for all the ducks to be in a row. Don't wait for the whole path to be laid out clearly. Lean into it.

Like I said, it was what I needed to hear. I believe that was the word that Tom felt was for someone in attendance today, and it very much could've been just for me.

As I reflect on it though, this word of encouragement only breathes life and focus into what I already felt the Lord was saying. It also reminds me that I am not obeying what I felt like He has said.

Convicted and encouraged. Time to lean in.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Monsters Inc


This fall/winter marks the 10th anniversary of the Disney/Pixar film Monsters Inc. I normally wouldn't care a lick about that, except for the fact that Monsters Inc was the first movie my wife and I ever saw together as a married couple.

We had just gotten married in upstate NY, and had honeymooned in the Adirondack Mountains in the northern part of the state. We stayed in a small rustic cabin where we enjoyed our first week of marriage together. It was a quaint, secluded, peaceful little spot to share those first few moments together.

One of the things we did while on our honeymoon was visit a local mall that happened to still be showing the romantic flick (ha!) Monsters Inc. It turned out to be semi-romantic as we were able to have the theater all to ourselves! Not sure if that was divine favor or the fact that nobody wanted to see the movie anymore, either way, it makes for good memories.

So, as my third installment of reflecting on 10 years of marriage to my lovely bride, for your viewing pleasure here is the creative intro to Monsters Inc that we saw together as we watched the film 10 years ago. Enjoy!

PS. For any Monsters Inc nerds out there, the above photo is a pin that can be purchased here ;)

Friday, October 28, 2011

Practical Faith


One practical action I have taken lately to live without fear is to write the above verses and quote on a half piece of paper, and place it in one of my dresser drawers. Each day, I can pull it out and read from it for a brief moment, and remind myself of the truth in God's Word.

What I wrote on that paper was inspired by another post I wrote regarding fear. I wanted to look at these nuggets of truth daily to help remove the wrong patterns of thinking into my life.

It's funny, I never would have thought of myself as a fearful person, which goes to show we can deceive ourselves regarding who and what we really are like. One of the worst consequences I see from living with fear in my life is serving Jesus out of fear, and not love. I hate that. In the end, I feel like that fear feeds my self-righteousness and the temptation to think I can be right with God on my own merit. I'd have to think more about this, but I believe there is a connection in there somewhere.

I don't like admitting I live with fear, I'd like to believe and say I am super-faith-man... unfortunately that just isn't true. But being honest with ourselves about where we are at is a start. It's hard to know where you are going, let alone how to get there if you don't even know where you are at.

So yes. I am afraid. I live with fear. I have allowed fear to control my life in many aspects. And it's sin. It's wrong. It has to stop as a follower of the Lord Jesus. What is there to fear when He is my God and King? Yet, my flesh will come up with all sorts of reasons to be afraid if I let it.

And so I must fight. Fight for faith. Fight for a renewed mind, so that the Holy Spirit can move and reach and operate freely through me. Fight so that I can walk in greater intimacy with my Lord. One thing I know to use to fight effectively is the sword of the Spirit - His Word.

On a side note - one of the best combats to fear is the Presence of the Lord. There is freedom there, even freedom from fear. It is difficult to live overcome with fear, or other sin, when we are walking in the light of His presence, overcome with HIM.

Onward.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Wedding Day


This is post two as I will be posting here and there some special and fun pictures of my wife and I as we lead up to our 10th anniversary this December.

This is one of my favorite pictures from our wedding day. It wasn't taken by a professional photographer, rather, the moment was caught I believe by one of Liz's uncles. The picture was captured when we were walking through the reception hall, everyone clapping and cheering for the new couple. As you can tell, we were pretty thrilled too :)

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Knowledge

In America, we seem to prize knowledge. Knowledge seems to be the end in many ways, instead of part of the journey. Because I know or can at least conceptualize something or some subject matter, it makes me more valuable or some how important.

From what I see in the Scriptures, however, there is a difference between knowing something and doing something. Knowledge isn't everything. Even though a person is exhorted to gain knowledge in Proverbs, we also know that a believer must not be just a hearer of the Word, but a doer as well.

With the men I get together with on Wednesday nights, I talked about this very issue. We recently started a new book to discuss, The Jesus Letters, by David Ravenhill. Mr. Ravenhill is a man we all respect, and we look forward to his teaching on the letters to the churches in Revelation.

In the book, Mr. Ravenhill talks about the plethora of books that we have on christianity today. The problem is that if we are not careful, this book will become just another one of those books, just another book on the shelf. Nice book, sure. But how did it affect my life?

It's too easy to read another book, get done, say "that was nice," and move on with it having no lasting impact on my life.

More knowledge, more hearing; no change, no doing.

The worse thought though is not that we do that with good books like Mr. Ravenhill's, but that we do it with God's book to humanity, the Holy Scriptures.

The Bible talks about how hearing (or reading) and not doing is like looking in a mirror, seeing ourselves for who we are, and then walking away immediately forgetting what we looked like. Too many times I believe that describes me.

May we not be readers only, but doers.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Home

We made it.

What a trip! It ended up being a 2-for-1... we went to the Smokies to stay one night and head back to our home, and ended up with an extra night there for an extended mini-vacation!

So, after Gatlinburg, candy, sleep (sort of), breakfast, Apple Barn, WonderWorks, broke-down van, sleep, breakfast, fixed van (yea! thanks to great service by Carr's), Wendy's... we're home! And very thankful for the trip and how it all worked out. God's hand of favor and kindness was with us throughout the trip, even through the troubles with the van. What seemingly was a negative situation turned very much for the good, as it seems is the nature of the Lord.

So, for your enjoyment, a few pics from my phone of one part of our trip - our adventure visit to WonderWorks!











Perspective


We had another great day today with Grandpa and Grandma and the family. After a visit to The Apple Barn and then having a blast at Wonder Works, the day was full and we were ready to head for home.

Our van had other plans for us.

It had been acting funny on this trip, showing signs of an issue we had experienced in the past. We prayed and were ready to head for home in spite of or concerns, but our van wouldn't have it.

We headed over to a gas station to make a quick stop before we headed out, and our vehicle ended up parked in front of the gas pump for over two hours (the pic is a snapshot of our view across the road - some will recognize where this is in Pigeon Forge :). The only movement it had the rest of the night was on the back of a tow truck.

I was frustrated. No doubt.

But... Thanks to my in-laws, graciously taking us from gas station to hotel in trips. Thanks to Mike from the auto repair shop who came with a smile after a long day at work to chauffeur our van to the shop. Thanks to Diane who was so kind and sympathetic at the hotel we had to book. Thanks to my wife and kids who when we were given smoking rooms incorrectly - didn't complain, neither about the smelly room or the fact that we then were packing up our belongings and changing hotel rooms at 11 o'clock at night to get a non-smoking room.

So as I finish this blog post from our hotel room, waiting to hear the diagnosis regarding our van in the morning, I have so much to be thankful for. And thank you to everyone who reminded me of that tonight :)

Monday, October 24, 2011

Fall in the Smokies


A quick pic from our trip to Gatlinburg. Great day with family, looking forward to more tomorrow :)

Saturday, October 22, 2011

No Fear

I tweet. I enjoy it. I get to follow the people I chose that I have an interest in, a relationship with, or who add value to my life through the 140 characters they have to write their thoughts.

One person I recently started following was Taffi Dollar, wife of Creflo Dollar of Creflo Dollar Ministries. I know little of the Dollars, though, I am amused by their last name, and I have enjoyed some of their tweets. One in particular caught my attention the other day that I found beneficial and spoke into my life. Mrs. Dollar's tweet said this:

"TaffiDollar: Pray for your children. No fear! Shut the door on fear with faith. Live the fearless life. Fear robs you & robs them of their peace."

So true.

I struggle with fear when it comes to my children. When I give into that fear I am giving into sin. God commands us to not be afraid. Nor did He give us a spirit of fear, rather perfect love casts out fear. God through His Word has made it clear that we are to live a "fearless life," but the reality of my life right now is that I allow myself to live with fear. I have allowed fear to creep in, not only in regards to my children, but other areas of life as well.

And so I chose, today, with the help of the Holy Spirit, to live a life without fear. I chose, instead, to live a life of faith.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Precious Marbles

Yesterday I began a post about commitment. I had questions regarding commitment to believers in the church, yet ended with a possible answer in love. In fact, I believe it was the answer to my questions. I want to write more on this subject, but not tonight :)

Tonight, I want to give an update.

Remember the marble post? Well, I ran the numbers. I calculated them up. I numbered my days.

Numbering my months hit me the most. I know how fast a month goes, and when I numbered them, 500 or so, I was taken back. Just a few hundred? My life?

I am understanding more and more why the Psalmist wanted to be taught to "number" his days. It truly works in us that heart of wisdom that he talks about in Psalm 90. It helps us to remove the foolishness of thinking our lives last forever, and empowers us through the Holy Spirit to make the most of the moments we have in front of us.

I can honestly say, this whole thing has been having an impact on my life, for the good. I have thought more than once when I am with my kids, that the moment before me is like holding that marble in my hand. After today, that marble will be gone, never to be held again. It helps me to open my eyes and my heart to the precious moment before me with my children that so often I look over and exchange for the unnecessary burdens I allow myself to carry around in my heart and mind.

So, Lord, once again,

...teach us to number our days
   that we may get a heart of wisdom.

Psalm 90:12

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Commitment

On Wednesday nights, I get together with other men from the body of believers I worship with at The Chapel. We have been having wonderful times together. We have challenged one another, confessed to one another, trust is being built between one another... it's really a beautiful thing.

Last night we were discussing a topic that has stemmed from the sermons that Tom Zurowski has been sharing on for the past couple of weeks. We got into commitment to the body. Commitment to one another.

My mind and heart is in turmoil and unrest over this idea of commitment. It feels as if never before in my years as a Christian have I considered commitment to the body (church) like I am going through now. It's possible I have been challenged in this area in the past at other church fellowships, but it has never hit me like it is now.

The thought of committing to a "church" is almost disgusting to me. I'm not sure why. I guess the thought of committing to an institution has no life in it, at least that is how it seems to me. I guess I have the misconception such that when I hear "church," I hear "building," or "programs," or "institution." And I have no desire to commit to that. None.

Commitment to a person, or a people... now that's a different story. There is life in that to me. Of course, "church" is people. I've heard it said before that we live in a generation where little Jimmy and Susie were dragged to "church" when they were young, and so this generation of Christians think church is something you go to rather than something you are.

And so we discussed commitment to one another. What does that commitment look like? What does Jesus require? What is God's command in terms of commitment to one another? As I looked at my brother's last night I inquired, "What does Christ command in our commitment to one another?"

I understand commitment in marriage, and then there is commitment to family. Maybe even commitment to friends. But commitment to those I worship with? In many ways this is new to me.

The model I am used to seeing in many ways is if I don't like a church, if I get hurt or offended, it's OK, I'll just pack my bags and head to a new "church" until it happens all over again there. It seems we can leave at the drop of a hat these days when it comes to church. Oh yea, I'm committed, until... someone hurts my feelings, or, doesn't do things my way, or the pastor doesn't give my family or I enough attention...

All the while "church" is more an institution, and a place where I come and get what I want, as opposed to giving my life away.

And, so, commitment to brothers? Commitment to the body? What does it look like? What does God require? I am at a loss in regards to all this.

But wait. Maybe. Just maybe...

...the question or turmoil goes deeper than that. Maybe the question isn't regarding what God requires in terms of commitment to others in the body.

Maybe... Maybe it's more about what God requires concerning love.

Maybe commitment is implied in love, stems from love, flows from love...

Hmm... I'll finish this tomorrow :)

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Heart Words

One thing I am learning about blogging is that for me, I get the most enjoyment when I am able to put into words the passions, convictions, and thoughts that reside deep inside of me. That's what makes the time and effort well spent.

I am realizing the commitment level needed to be able to write on things near and dear to my heart is high. It takes time, reflection, energy and effort to recognize what is in my heart and then put those concepts, emotions and passions into written form. At least that is how it is for me.

I also believe that if I am neglecting my time with the Lord, my inspiration runs dry in many ways. He is my source of inspiration, He is my greatest and innermost desire. The Holy Spirit is the one who even helps me formulate words that accurately express the things in my heart. He is the fountain of my inspiration and desires so to speak, and when I am not drinking from that fountain, my inspiration runs dry.

Jesus is the source of life for me, and He is for all of humanity, though some recognize it while others don't. It is in God we find truth, Jesus being that Truth. He holds the answers for life, both in this life and life eternal. In Christ, we can see through the deceptions of the age, grow in holiness, and renew our minds to think according to truth.

And so, He is my ultimate inspiration. Without Him, I have nothing to write, nothing meaningful to me. Now sure, I could write on things important to me separate from Christ such as my family, my struggles, and convictions, but ever since I found life in Him, He is the river of life that gives even greater meaning to things that are already important to me.

I am new to this. Sharing my thoughts on a regular basis. Each blog is different and each blogger writes for different reasons. For me, my writing is closely connected to my heart. And as a Christian, I believe you would find Christ at the center of my heart. I don't think I say that in pride, but for the simple fact that He is everything to me! He is the only one that helps me make sense of the world around me, and breathes life into my very existence.

And so, I write.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Monday, October 17, 2011

Church

While the saints gathered at The Chapel this past Sunday, the video below was shown to all of us in attendance. God has been adjusting and dismantling some of my baggage when it comes to the "church," who she is and what she does. And I'm glad.

Watch the video below. Careful though, it may break your box, cramp your style, or better yet, cause you to drop your baggage.


This is Discipling from The Foursquare Church on Vimeo.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Lamp Words

The Bible says in Psalm 119,

Your word is a lamp to my feet
   and a light to my path.

The Word of God is a light in this life, guiding our feet down the correct paths. This has me thinking about Jesus, the Light of the World. Jesus was the Word of God made flesh that dwelt among us. He was and is the very Word of God. Jesus also was the perfect declaration of the Father. He perfectly revealed the Father to us, saying, "Whoever has seen me has seen the Father," and the fact that He only did what He saw the Father doing.

That means the Word of God perfectly reveals the Father. It is the perfect revelation of God.

This leads me to a few conclusions:

1. No wonder so many people have died to preserve the very Words of Scripture. They are the perfect revelation of the Almighty. They are all we have to help us understand the unseen, the heavenly, the Perfect One.

2. The importance of our Words. The Word(s) of God became flesh and provided the atoning sacrifice for all of humanity. The Word of God became flesh in Jesus Christ and provided light and salvation to the world. The Word of God perfectly reveals God. Our words reveal us. His Word impacted and impacts the nations. Our words can do the same when we join with God to speak His truths, and not just our temporal opinions.

3. The completeness of Scripture. Shame on us if we are ever ashamed of any part of the Word of God. It is the perfect declaration of Him. We cannot be afraid to teach and embrace the whole of Scripture. We shouldn't shy away from parts of His Word because we can't understand them or it breaks our theological box. We need to roll up our sleeves, join with the Holy Spirit and fully embrace the whole counsel of God and apply it to our lives.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

S'mores!


We finished a work day at the house tonight with a meal around the fire (hot dogs on a stick) followed up with yummy s'mores. Perfect ending to a beautiful, cool, Fall day!







Friday, October 14, 2011

Change


About one year ago this month, my family and I visited Gatlinburg, TN. The picture above was actually taken up near the Tennessee/North Carolina border, when you travel on Route 441 from Gatlinburg into the Smokey Mountains. It was a beautiful drive.

We hope to visit Gatlinburg again in the near future, and we will more than likely be in the same places we were about one year ago. The only difference is, I hope I am not in the same place.

I hope I am at a different place than I was last year.

What I mean by this is that I hope I am different. I hope I have changed, for the better! Here it is October; 2011 is quickly racing to a close, and it seems I was just reflecting on the changes I wanted to make and goals I wanted to reach in my life for this year.

So tonight I'm considering, am I really different? How am I doing at making those changes I wanted to make at the beginning of the year?

In some ways, I believe I am better. In other ways, I remain the same, or seem to have slipped backwards.

I don't believe we are supposed to stay stagnant and struggle with the same things all our lives. God has made us to be victorious and calls us to holiness.

I am thankful tonight, because the year is not over yet... I am still sucking air, and so I still have another opportunity to change, to get better, to become more like Jesus.

This year, as I visit the same place I was a year ago, I hope I will be in a different place.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Judah



What a night. Tonight we celebrated my son, Judah's, birthday. He just turned the ripe old age of 2. What a thrill that little boy is :) He thrills his daddy's heart.

Pizza, cake, icecream, toys, a movie and a pillow fight later, and I think (hope) everyone is ready for bed.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Numbering Our Days

Moses, in Psalm 90, says,

So teach us to number our days
   that we may get a heart of wisdom.

I had heard this Scripture passage before (or one like it), but didn't really understand it until yesterday.

I've mentioned in another post that my boss and I have had some good conversations over the past several months. We as a company have been pushing and working hard to complete a massive project. It's an exciting and stressful season, and my boss, Bill, and I were talking about an upcoming event where the product will be sold. As we discussed, somehow the topic of the end and brevity of our lives came up.

And I'm glad it did.

Bill began sharing about a guy he once heard about who had a bunch of marbles and two containers of some sort. The man placed marbles representing the number of weekends he had left to live in one container, and the other container held the number of marbles that represented the weekends already spent. As each weekend went by, so one marble was taken out of the number of weekends left, and placed into the number of weekends spent.

Then Bill began an exercise of counting the number of weekends he has left in his life. He estimated the average age of a man to be say 72, and Bill is in his mid to upper fifties.

Talk about a wake up call.

He asked me at one point what would I do if I new I had only 15 years left of my life.

Again, a wake up call.

For some reason, I live as if I will live forever. I'm sure its part of being young, but it seems like at some point in a persons life, they realize that life doesn't really last forever. They realize that most of their life is behind them. Maybe they begin to number their days.

Moses asks the Lord to teach him to number his days, so that he might have a heart of wisdom. When we learn to number our days, it awakens us to the value and meaning in this very moment I now live. It teaches us to be thankful for every day I have on this earth, and to make the most of those days. I don't want to wait until I am older to learn to number my days, rather, I want to learn in my younger years. Life is much shorter than we many times realize.

None of us know when we are going to die. Bill wasn't saying he knew when he would leave this earth. His parents are well into their 80's and he could live that long or longer. But for the sake of numbering his days, he selected an average age and went through this exercise. I am going to go through the same exercise, and I would invite you to do the same.

Find out how many weekends you may have left on average, the number of days, the number of days with your children before they leave the home (consider too the time you are away from them if you work outside the home). Look at how many marbles have been used up as well.

Write it down. Look at the numbers.

May they awaken us to have a heart of wisdom, and to make the most of the time we have.

One thing I've realized as I have thought about this, the marble only travels one direction. You can't ever take a marble from the days we have spent and place it back into the days we have left. That marble is gone. That moment is gone. Never to be used again.

So teach us to number our days
   that we may get a heart of wisdom.



Amen.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Others

I can't shake it. It's a good thing. I have seen my sin and desire to change. My life still revolves around me. In many ways, I am still at the center of my universe.

AKA selfish and self-centered.

Our lives change when we meet Jesus. We taste and see that the Lord is good and we are forever changed. But if we're not careful, we can go on loving God and enjoying His presence in our lives, all the while still living isolated from people and their needs.

The older I get the more I am realizing that our love for God and what he has done for us should be played out in our interactions and love for others. So you say you love God? Show it by how you treat and love others. What good is that supposed love for God if you neglect the needs and never consider the interests of others? You say you would lose your life for Jesus, would you lose it for others? Would you lose it in terms of time, money, inconvenience, patience, prayer...?

Are you willing to lose your life for the church? The body?

Counting others more significant that ourselves, considering their needs and interests like or before our own takes a purposeful, conscience effort to do so. To reorient our lives like this requires a reorienting of our minds. And that is no small task. The changing and renewal of our mind doesn't always come easy. We need the help of the Holy Spirit. And He does. And He will.

Monday, October 10, 2011

How to Count

Like most people, I learned how to count when I was a kid. I must have been decent at counting as I went on to be a math major at college. However, the older I get I am realizing I need to learn how to count all over again.

However, the counting I am talking about has nothing to do with numbers. It has everything to do with people.

Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Philippians 2:3,4.

My buddy Tom Zurowski preached on killing the consumer mentality in us as believers yesterday.

It hurt. Bad.

But it's a good hurt in the end. I needed it.

I have heard as a Christian about loving others of course, and have tried walking it out. But yesterday the Lord through Tom's message was nailing me, and breaking me.

I'm not good at counting. I'm a consumer.

The Bible talks about counting others more significant, not looking just to my interests, but also looking to the interest of others.

I have a friend, Rich Knofsky, who was a great example of this to me. Him and his family were caught up "counting." You could tell. Their family was focused on and purposed to meet the needs of others. They were constantly reaching out to others - their lives were centered on Jesus, and as a result, they were centered on others as they should be as Christians. Again, I'm not sure why I've been so poor at counting.

I am realizing that my life is still, even after years of walking with the Lord, primarily focused on myself and my family. Now, we must focus on and meet the needs of our family, don't get me wrong, but if I or we as a family are never "counting" the interest of others, we are missing a huge part of being a follower of Jesus.

And, I'm not talking about an event here, or an occasional outreach to make me feel better. I am talking about it becoming the very fabric of who we are to count others more significant than ourselves, and to help to meet their needs and interests as a result.

In many ways I have had a difficult time putting into words what the Lord began speaking to me yesterday and still is. But I just kept thinking about a question: "Your willing to lay your life down for Me, are you willing to lay it down for others?" Am I willing to lay down my time, thoughts, prayers, energy, money - not just when it fits in my schedule - but also when it requires sacrifice, inconvenience and it doesn't feel good?

I thought I was good at counting. I'm realizing that I am not. But, I am desiring to change. Holy Spirit help me.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Perfect

I think I can live life perfectly on my own efforts. I wouldn't generally admit to that, but its what I [try to] do. I can feel it when the Holy Spirit or my wife calls me out on it. I'm caught up trusting in my own efforts and righteousness.

Romans 3:10-12 states,

as it is written:
   "None is righteous, no, not one;
 no one understands;
   no one seeks for God.
All have turned aside; together they have become worthless;
   no one does good,
   not even one."


Generally, this isn't an encouraging verse. And, it isn't. It's the bad news that precedes the good news in Christ spoken of later in the chapter. For me, the fact that no one is righteous, not even one, is also good news. It's good news because I can stop striving. Stop trying to live on my own accord, my own merit. Stop trying to earn His favor or acceptance, and instead receive it as a free gift.

While spending some time with the Lord this morning, this thought came to me:

Instead of trying to live this life perfectly; I need to trust in the Perfect One.

I read something similar to this in a tweet from someone I follow on Twitter yesterday. I don't know exactly what it said, but this truth came back to me at the right time this morning.

I. Can't. Do. It.

Ephesians 2:8-9 says,

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

It's never a burden to me to revisit the gift of God's grace. I'm accepted and declared righteous because of Jesus Christ this morning, not because of my own efforts. And it is by His grace, that I am empowered to live a holy life.

Ahhhh....

So once again, this morning, I surrender to your grace, Lord Jesus.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Boys Day Out


I had a great day today with my oldest son, Josiah. We needed this time together. It can be difficult in the midst of the busy-ness and worry of life to stop and actually engage and enjoy your kids. At least that is how it is for me. I many times allow myself to get so preoccupied with so many other things, that I never even take the time to look my children in the eyes and give them Daddy's full attention. And so day after day they are hungering for Daddy's affection, but Daddy's too engaged or weighed down by everything else to give them what they need.

I have many times talked about the need for the parents to have the hearts of their children, but how is that going to happen if the children don't even have the hearts of their parents.

And so Josiah and I had a boys-day-out.

8:15 am. Bacon, Egg, and Cheese Biscuit and Hot Cakes from McDonald's. Perfect way to start the day.

Then we headed on down to McCreary County, KY for a hike at Cumberland Falls.

It was awesome.

Beautiful day outside. Wonderful time with my son.

We didn't return home until early to mid afternoon, and shortly thereafter headed to hang out with several men from our church, The Chapel of Somerset. Josiah came with me and was able to play with his friends while I laid the smack down in cornhole (or got smacked around... one or the other :)

Anyway, I'm so thankful for our Daddy-Son day today. I loved it, and I think he did too :0)

Friday, October 7, 2011

Happy!


This December, my wife and I will have been married 10 years. That's right, a decade. It has been an amazing 10 years of marriage with the love of my life, Elizabeth. I constantly tell younger people to marry someone who is married to Jesus first. I can give them that advice because its what I did. Liz was married to Jesus before we ever got together, and so was I, and it has made all the difference in our relationship.

Over the next few weeks leading up to our anniversary, I am going to post some pics and reminisce about some of our times together. As a teaser and a warm-up so to speak, here is a throw back photo from back in the day. I had to scan this in as this was before our digital camera or smartphone days!

Lead-in... this is a shot when Liz and I were a few months into seeing each other. We were headed to a Garth Fagan dance production at Nazareth College [my Alma mater] in Rochester, NY. [you can tell it is early in our dating years by the size of the twitterpated grins on our faces!]

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Maps

I love maps. Not sure why. But I do. I have been wanting to post about maps for a few days now, I feel like they mean so much to me. Weird, I know.

If you've hung around me or gotten to know me, at some point when we are discussing where something is, you've seen me turn to my Google Maps on my phone to pin point the location.

Stop the conversation, I need to check my map.

Street view, satellite view, or my current favorite, terrain... doesnt matter, I like maps. Rand McNally and I - buddies. For Life. BFF. (Well, not that close).

I'd say I prefer to have a map in my hand, but I also love the interactivity of the Maps App on my phone. Got an address? I'll find you. You cant hide from me.

I better move on before I go overboard.

My family went on road trips when I was young. They were great. It was a great time for everyone to stop the busy-ness of life and just spend time with each other. No distractions, just family. I remember following the maps that we had as we drove to our destination. This was before GPS world. Need to know mileage to next exit? Got it. Time till we get there? No problem, I'll use my map and sign skills. I still remember to this day predicting to the minute our time of arriving at a particular point on our trip. I thought I was pretty special.

So I have always loved maps I guess. I could gaze at them for hours. I love to see the bigger picture, and zoom in on the details. I love trip planning, and scoping out the area of where we are going - using maps.

There is something to a map. It shows you where you are, where you want to go, and how to get there. Even showing elevation, satellite views, detours, etc. using today's interactive maps.

I guess in some ways that's how I am in life. I love understanding where I am at, where I need to go, and how to get there. Problem is, I don't always see my life map as clearly as a road map. I wish it were that easy. That is where trust enters. God knows where I am, my destination, and how to get there.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
   and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
   and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5,6 ESV

With that I will leave you with a snapshot of my current favorite map view - Terrain. The particular snapshot is of a town called, Bluefield, VA. I heard about this place talking with one of the ladies from The Neighborhood, a local home for senior living. She said it is where she is from and said it was the highest town (in elavation) this side of the Mississipi. Not sure if that is true, but I do love her map :)


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Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Today

I had a great conversation with my boss today. In fact, we've had some real meaningful ones lately. He recently was born again, putting his faith and life in Christ. And you can see a change in him. As a result, we have had some really good conversations over the recent months.

Last weekend he went and saw the new movie Courageous. He said it changed his life (and has been on me making sure my wife and I go watch it). I started talking with him about how fast time flies in life and the importance of spending time with our children. Giving our time and attention to them. Focused attention.

You see, my boss is in his 50's and all his children are out on their own, starting their own families and having children (his beloved grandchildren). He retired from the military, and has done several business ventures on his own since then. He is an extremely hard worker and is good at what he does.

I say all this because it gives perspective regarding what he said to me. It was so simple, and yet, as I reflect on it, is profound in helping us become better fathers. He talked about how we say to our kids, "We'll play tomorrow." Or, "Let's do that later." He also talked about how the things he thought were so important then, aren't so important now.

Tomorrow. Later. Yea, I've said it. Sadly, many times, later never comes. As a poem I once read says, Tomorrow never comes. Dad gets (and is) preoccupied with everything else that utterly pales in comparison to my son's or daughter's heart and affection.

We don't understand how important and meaningful and weighty that moment is for them. We can understand some when we reflect on our childhood and our relationship with our parents. Dad and Mom are heroes, they're everything in many ways.

And yet all they hear might be, "Tomorrow."

I left the conversation so uplifted and encouraged to look into my children's eyes and give them the attention and affection they deserve, Today.

One of my fears is not enjoying life as it is here and now. Constantly looking to the next thing and not seizing the moments I have with my children here and now. I fear it because that is what I do - constantly toiling about everything in life but the things, or people, that really matter. My children are growing up way to fast as it is.

And yet, in that conversation with my boss was a hidden gem called "Today." Not tomorrow, but today. One of the secrets to living life to the fullest is living it today. Playing that game, today. Building that Lego model, today. Giving that affection, today. Looking in their eyes with distracted pleasure, today.

And so here it is, or gift, called Today. Tomorrow isn't garunteed. I've always know that, yet it hit me with more significance, today. That little decision of saying yes to today with my kids as opposed to tomorrow can have a profound impact on our relationship, their relationship with God, their future, and how they will one day raise their kids. As my boss said, the pattern needs to end with me, today.

One decision. One exchange in words. I won't do it tomorrow, I'll do it today.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Faith Booster

Psalm 119:27 says, Make me understand the way of your precepts, and I will meditate on your wondrous works.

What a great way to build faith. When we meditate on the great things God is done, we are encouraged in our faith. We are encouraged to believe God for more of the same and greater! The problem comes when I fill my mind with what I feel He HASN'T done. My faith crashes at that point and its hard to step out in faith and believe God for more.

Jesus perfectly revealed the Father. In doing that, He healed all who came to Him. I have never seen a place in Scripture where He turned someone down for healing. We too are to pray in faith for healing with Jesus as our example. We have power through the Holy Spirit to do great works! However, if I meditated on all the times I have prayed for healing and it didn't happen, my faith isn't encouraged. At all. In fact I'm probably more discouraged. On the other hand, when I meditate and remind myself of the times healing has occured, I am encouraged and empowered to believe God for more!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Shout Out

Let me just tell you, I'm digging this blogging stuff! It's a lot of fun. It excites me to come down and write. Not sure why exactly, but that's OK :) I know I am only a few days into writing, but I am truly enjoying it.

I have had it in my heart for a while to blog. It seemed I never found the time to start one, or more accurately, never made the time. But it was there - a desire to write, blog style.

The other day I was tracking my tweeps and came across an inspiring post on Christopher Hopper's blog that he posted to his Twitter feed. He talked about a commitment he made a few months ago to blog every day, and the results of him doing that.

That was all I needed.

Soon thereafter my blog was born. Honestly, with not much before-thought, I started the blog and created the name, and got rolling right away.

So anyway, I want to give a big shout out to Christopher and his commitment to writing, and his blog, for helping me get over the hump. If you don't know this man, or follow his blog or tweets, I highly encourage it. Christopher lives life big as his blog states, and you can be a part if it through his blog.

And, I made the same commitment to myself. Blog everyday. Otherwise, it doesn't seem worth it.

Let's go.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

The Jesus Letters

I recently started reading a new book, The Jesus Letters by David Ravenhill. Mr. Ravenhill came and spoke at our church recently, unfortunately my family and I were unable to attend. However, my good buddy Tom snatched me a copy of this book, and I'm glad he did!

The Jesus Letters

From the beginning of the book I felt as if I was biting into a big hunk of steak. No frills, no fluff, probably won't ever see it as a NY Times Best Seller, but maybe that's part of what makes it so good. I'm not too far into the book, but Mr. Ravenhill doesn't hesitate to cut to the chase. He jumps right in with great insight for our churches and our lives.

If you are looking for something other than the typical Christian living best seller, don't hesitate, get a hold of this book today and join me as I read through its pages. Purchase the book here.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Picking Your Apple



What a great day my family and I had. We visited Haney's Appledale Farm in Nancy, KY, then finished the afternoon off with some Mexican food at one of our favorite family restaurants in Somerset, El Charro.


Then, the evening finished off with a great conversation with my 8-year-old daughter, Lauren. Lauren initiated the conversation while everyone was still awake, and I believe one of the first parts of the conversation was something about her wanting to marry someone who loves God and hates Halloween :) I love it! Though hating Halloween isn't the primary decision-maker in choosing a spouse (nor is it the focus of this post) the deeper issue of loving God is of utmost importance as you determine who you will spend the rest of your life with.


After we had put all the boys to bed, Lauren and I continued to talk more about marriage while I held her in my arms. It was beautiful. So many times my thoughts can be with anything and everything else, but for tonight, we had a good father-daughter connection. She was wondering about marriage and is most definitely thinking about who she should marry (even giving me a specific young boy that I shall not reveal here!) I was surprised this level of thinking happens at this age, and I am also reminded that I am male and she is female. Girls dream about marriage from young so it seems while boys are caught up in adventures and the next thing that's going on I guess :)


Anyway, I shared with her about how her Mom and I got married, how I asked her to marry me (which my wife stepped in to help with the details ;) how old we were, how I asked her Dad permission to marry her Mom, etc. Again, to my surprise, she is already counting the years until she is 18, I believe being aware of marrying age! Yikes! Wake up Dad!


She was so open to what I was sharing with her, it was beautiful. The best advice I believe I gave her was to find a young man who is married to Jesus first. Who loves Jesus more than he loves even her. Similarly, I told her to find a man who loves Jesus as much as she does. How can she marry a man and start a family if they are not walking in step?


We got talking about when the young man will come to me as her Dad and ask permission to marry her, and then eventually ask her. It was just a wonderful moment that God gave us together that no doubt is helping to shape her thoughts and how she prepares for marriage and finds a spouse one day. Of course, she is learning most from my wife and my example that we daily live before all our kids.


I am so blessed to be married to a woman who is married to Jesus first and foremost. I am so thankful the Holy Spirit was involved as I "picked my apple," the love of my life, Elizabeth. I pray that Lauren will involve Him as well as her day to be married approaches, which is coming much sooner than Daddy realizes :)